Yemaya: Mother of all the Fish
It was the beginning of 2014 when I started tarot lessons with my mentor Jacquie. At this time I kept pulling The World card , and I asked her if she had any insights about what this might mean. She replied that she had an intuitive hit: “The Mother is calling to you”, she said. “This is going to be an amazing year!”. I was excited by this, and looked forward to what was to come.
It was around this time when I also attended my very first (and only, thus far) shamanic journey to meet one of my spirit animals. And it wasn't until the end, when I was nearly asleep, that any visions came through.
What I saw was a peacock, and it was running around quickly, to the beat of the drum. It had such a sense of lightness and play about it, and I felt its lesson for me was to not take things so seriously.
But I wasn’t sure if this journey actually worked. I doubted the validity of the vision. “Is there even such a thing as a peacock spirit animal?”, I wondered. In my mind, I’d thought that they were only fierce ones like eagles, wolves and tigers. I thought it was funny (and disappointing, even) that a peacock came through! When I went home I searched online and found that such spirit animals do exist- in fact, all sorts of spirit animals exist!
By the end of February, my time in London was up, and I went back to NYC. There is a well-known oracle in the area named Uversa who had given me a powerful reading before I went to London, and I went to see her a few more times after returning to the US. She is another motherly figure who had also mentored me a bit, and she shared magical and profound insights in her readings for me.
When I first returned to New York and visited her, one of the things she said was: “You are Yemaya. You talk to dolphins. Your power colors are blue and white”. At the time, I thought she was speaking figuratively, saying that I shared qualities with this goddess whom I’d never heard of before.
Later on I received another reading from her and she said: “You are a mermaid. You are beautiful, sensitive and intuitive. Now that that is established, what are you going to do with those qualities? They are there to put to use”. Again, I assumed that she must have been speaking figuratively.
On that same day when I received this "mermaid message", I met up with a new friend I’d made named Dainichi Lazuli. He is also known within the spiritual community in NY, and is another gifted reader. At the time I was interested in the topic of spirit guides, and I asked if he could give me any insight on who one of them was.
He looked around my aura and said, “There is blue on your left side”. Then he said, “Yema.. Yemo..?”.
I remembered Uversa’s reading a while back, and then said, “Is it.. Yemaya?”.
“Yes!,” he replied. “She wants you to know that it’s her, and that you are an.. Undeen? Undine?”.
I recalled one of the first things that Jacquie taught me, and it was about the elemental beings. She told me that “undines" were the spirits of water, and that mermaids were among them.
And so twice in a day, I was told I was a mermaid. That cannot be coincidence, right? But I wondered: What does that even mean? Can humans be mer-beings? How?
..That was a topic I then proceeded to explore.
I also looked into Yemaya, and found that she is a Mother goddess of the moon and ocean, often depicted as a mermaid. She is called “Star of the Sea”, and “Mother of all the Fish”. And I learned that one of her animals was.. the peacock! I feel this also cannot just be a coincidence.
And so this is how my matron deity; my spiritual mother was revealed to me...